history repeats…………….
yesterday i had a nice sms converstation and a gd frn of mine is going through exactly wat i went through sm wow……..4 yrs back……n till now i know pudicha sani vudathu!!
its true tat i might have been crazy in love……yes i won deny tat….i might have invested loads of energy n had a mountain of faith tat no mATTER wat i’ll werk it out even if it is the entry of a new party……but nothin was eva enough n eventually i came up with the conclusion tat if its meant to be let go n if it comes back its mine……..n i juz felt in the end tat he neva loved me to start with so why put myself through such torture rite?….n i let it go for gd…no need fer it to come back coz i wontake it bck anyways…..but my surrounding will neva eva let it go……
no matter wat i did it seemed to the circle arnd me tat im trying my luck with him again………soooo much i went through coz ppl assumed tat i will neva move on n im trying n still m trying my luck after all these yrs……………ridiculous?? but true……..
i had sms threats, verbal arguments which were very hurting …..all coz they refuse to open their eyes to see…….
u know wat made me move on …….the fact that i got so much going for me………my education my music n dance my wonderful frens…….my life is so exciting n i luv it……why wld i wanna burst that pretty bubble pining for an idiot not worth 2 cents……..why shld i …? of coz not……
love is pretty n when i think abt those times now…..i smile n smtimes i do try to imagine n relive it…..but its an imaginary world……n its not life……do i feel anything when i see him…..of coz…who u kidding….i once loved tat bloke but if it eva comes back (which i dun think god is so mean to put me through)…….there is no chance of me accepting it for a simple reason…….u spit smthin dun lick it back again ya!
so now when i see my dearest going through it all i tell her juz one thing…..it’ll neva end……but u’re life will have to go on……..coz life….is so short n lovely…….dun waste u’re enrygy worrying instead use the enrergy to live life in everyway u wan to……….
in a way i thank god for putting me through all those heartbreaks for if not….i’d suffer alot handling disappointments which always spring up at unexpected moments……
i know i blog alot abt love n relationships….well wts life without all of these anyways rite?
