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Ill-be-missing-you(Yeah… this right hear… goes out to everyone who has lost someone they
truly love)

Seems like yesterday we used to rock the show
I laced the track, you locked the flow
So far from hangin on the block for dough
Notorious, they got to know that
Life ain’t always what it seem to be (uh-uh)
Words can’t express what you mean to me
Even though you’re gone, we still a team
Through your family, I’ll fulfill your dreams (that’s right)
In the future, can’t wait to see
If you open up the gates for me
Reminisce some time, the night they took my friend (uh-huh)
Try to black it out, but it plays again
When it’s real, feelings hard to conceal
Can’t imagine all the pain I feel
Give anything to hear half your breath (half your breath)
I know you still living your life, after death

Every step I take, every move I make
Every single day, every time I pray
I’ll be missing you
Thinkin of the day, when you went away
What a life to take, what a bond to break
I’ll be missing you

It’s kinda hard with you not around (yeah)
Know you in heaven smilin down (eheh)
Watchin us while we pray for you
Every day we pray for you
Til the day we meet again
In my heart is where I’ll keep you friend
Memories give me the strength I need (uh-huh) to proceed
Strength I need to believe
My thoughts Big I just can’t define (can’t define)
Wish I could turn back the hands of time
Us in the 6, shop for new clothes and kicks
You and me taking flicks
Makin hits, stages they receive you on
I still can’t believe you’re gone (can’t believe you’re gone)
Give anything to hear half your breath (half your breath)
I know you still living you’re life, after death

Faith Evans:
Somebody tell me why
On that morning
When this life is over
I know
I’ll see your face
Every night I pray, every step I take
[Puff] Every day that passes
Every move I make, every single day
[Puff] Is a day that I get closer
[Puff] To seeing you again
Every night I pray, every step I take
[Puff] We miss you Big… and we won’t stop
Every move I make, every single day
[Puff] Cause we can’t stop… that’s right
Every night I pray, every step I take
Every move I make, every single day
[Puff] We miss you Big

fateful incident of April the 27th….i lost a Gd fren on that day n till this day i still miss her n wish there cld have been someway i cld have prevented it…..all my frens who went through that dark period i believe wish they cld have prevented it from happening but i guess god’s agenda is other wise n it was her time…or was it?……………

loss of someone dear to one is always difficult to go through and at the age of 15 it Wes my first time experiencing the lost of a friend  ………well there are somethings in life where initially it may seem impossible to overcome like the feeling of grieve and i muz say that i will neva get over the loss of this beautiful gal but the intensity wld surely decrease after sometime and its not a bad thing but it juz goes to prove that time can heal all wounds………….but the regret will be alwys there……

some three yrs ago on the same day that my frend passed on something else happened……i received a proposal which i waited for very very patiently through many many tough n rough times…but then again i wished it neva happened coz when the proposal fell through …….it was really hard on me…….it took me long to recover from it  n i won say im totally recovered n it surely is something i will neva recover from but the intensity is surely down sizably……..well its ridiculous for a person to hold on to their past as it will affect u’re present….n i learnt that too the hard way…………

the 27th of april……is one day which i go pass like as if its friday the 13th in fear that something bad awaits me ……stupid thinking thaa but wat to do………..

"A perverse man stirs up dissension, and a gossip separates close friends”

why do ppl tok nonsense abt others behind their backs…..have they eva given a tot to how that person might feel if they get the news??…personally i hate hearing ppl telling me ‘eh i heard this n that  abt u’………n if u think gals are the queens of it all u are so sooooo wrong…men are the king of this whole gossip trade……gossips break relationships n ppl’s esteem……..

othello is a classic story of gossip gone too far……..he eventually kills his wife whom he loved so dear coz he the gossip broke his esteem n he juz could not trust his own judgement….one can say u muz have trust in u;re own partner if u have trust then u can get over such gossips….but then again how much can a person absorb….everyone has a breaking pt…….

so to all my close ones who hear stuff abt me believe in them totally……..u cld choose to differ but wat eva it is if its something that affects u ….u will know the truth in time to come…..but somethings……juz cant be proven in anyways…..so if u cant handle it then…………..i dun wan to be in desdemona’s shoes………

its been juz abt a yr since the whole spiritual saga me priya mara n durga went through…….*sigh*…….i thank god i had such support arnd me….or not i cant imagine wat wld have become of me…….

well i was expecting amma to come down this yr n perform for her with my dance class but dunno wat happen…no news yet….so sad……..

i haven been going temple on thus for 3 weeks already….my music n all has been keeping my hands too full……but this thus i’ll somehow try to drop by temple b4 rehearsal….this sat it’ll all be over……good riddance!!!!sheesh……though i will miss the orchestra ppl n our routine kopi kadai n pool outting……..

which is why music n dance is so close to my heart….many ppl asked me…exams so near by u still take up so much of commitments….hopw not too?…….this is something that is with me through all my dark times……my avenue of diversion n my better half……..

well i cant wait for exmas to be over n to plunge into my music n dance practices…i’ll be performing for something called ballet under the stars….i’ve been for it once n usually its all ballet but this tiem they wan some ethnic dances also so….ya…..i’ll be dancing….i think it shld be quite fun hee hee he…….it always is…

yesterday akka was having a chat with us abt all she had to go through to conceive n give birth to kethar…….once incident she said was on a sunday morning….b4 coming for dance class well she has to put 2 jabs in the morn n 2 in the evening coz it was conceiving through other means….the jab her husband puts for her coz it has to be done slowly as the fluid is oil based n injecting quickly will cause the skin to rupture…..

that day her husband was at kl….n she had no one to put the jab for her…..she told him its ok n she will go to a clinic to put the jab but u know wat the husband did??….he drove all the way down from kl juz to put the jab for her…..drove through the nite…n reached home at 4 am…….

she said for such means of conceiving one needs the support of her husband…

i think through any pregnancy a woman needs her husbands support….i surely will……n i hope i get someone who will be so supportive…

sadly there are some men who won follow their wives for their med appmts…..spend quality time with the wives or even tend to the wives after having had given birth….

i heard from a fren that the husband who seemed like the dream man to get married to after her child birth changed….his reasoning is my mother give birth to so many n still neva complain all but u one already giving so much of complains……n thsi woman was going through post natal depression…..

how insensitive ….but thank god she was a strong willed lady n managed to get through it all………..

but i know for a fact that not all men are like tat…..n u cant blame em for having been brought up with such views……but gals pls do casually ask u’re bf’s or fiance’s how they’d react if u went through bad pregnancy or post natal….it’ll say alot abt if u shld really be with em or not…………

mummy n i luv this song……..i can really relate to it……

You took me higher than I’ve ever been
Now that we’re strangers, I’ve come down again
Back to the real world, back to the real world
Back to the ground
Not high above it, up where the love is
Now I’m earthbound

Because we usedto say that we were far away
Because our love, it took us to another place
And it’s so hard for me to face

But if you really have to go
You take the high, I’ll take the low
But when you leave me don’t you know
You leave me earthbound
If you really have to go
You take the high, I’ll take the low
But when you leave me don’t you know
You leave me earthbound

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