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i woke up today with a new burst of energy…..with one tot which is today will be a better day n is a new day……wat eva the obstacles i’ll get over it……i juz have to keep telling myself….stop being so emotional….n juz go with the flow…..n i once again muz thank god for giving me such wonderful frens who are my pillar of strength……wat wld i do without u priya…..at the confusion i was in yesterday u were my god ……… i know i tend to become a bit psycho when im emotional but i m n i have to gain back my composure….or not i’d prolly scare ppl away…….so wat if i neva get things that i really want in my life…..i still have my life n great frens like u babe(priya) which i neva asked for……..we’ve had our ups n down ….times where i tot lets juz move away but for some reason i know u are my god sent angel as much as im u’res n someday when i get married u will be my bridesmaid or ponnu thozhi vokey…i chope now it self….!!! luv u babe!!

"You may thnk you love someone when you feel that you need them to bring happiness to you for the rest of your life. But you never truly love someone unless you feel you’ll do whatever you have to to give them eternal happiness - even if it means letting. them go."
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im sick once again…..!went to the doc n got medcines which are very very storng….so much so that my hands are trembling n i have to speak slower n i din realise it till i was halfway through my journey to someone’s place…luck for me i manages to catch a short nap which helped like abit la…not much…..i went for a lung x-ray…all is clear but i might have asthma…..dam! i need my cough to go away…..i cant sing if it does not…..pls god….dun do this to me…i have stopped all cold drinks n food bad for throat almost 95%..u know its torturous to not drink ice water after dance class…..very torturous

i compiled a folder of special song sinto my mp3 player…..n its really neat….i mean those are really nostalagic songs but brings a smile upon my face…..it tells me ‘babe if u cld go through tat shit everything else is peanuts!’

k im trembling too much to type so nites……

this is an old fav of mine……heard it juz after a long time n seem to be able to relate to it for some reason……

If I should stay
I would only be in your way
So I’ll go, but I know
I’ll think of you ev’ry step of the way
And I will always love you
I will always love you
You
My darling, ooh

Bittersweet memories
That is all I’m taking with me
So goodbye–please don’t cry
We both know I’m not what you, you need

And I will always love you
I will always love you

I hope life treats you kind
And I hope you have all you’ve dreamed of
And I wish you joy and happiness
But, above all this, I wish you love

And I will always love you
I will always love you
I will always love you
I will always love you
I will always love you
I, I will always love you

You
Darling, I love you
Ooh, I’ll always
I will always love you

hmm……..

‘like how medicine heals the body, music heals the soul’

this is a song in bindhu malini raagam composed many thousands of years ago by thyagaraja

                                     
Enta muddO? Enta sugasO?

Evarilla varNimpa tagunE?

Enta vAralaina gAni

kAntacintAkrAntulai nAru

atta mIda kanu lAsaku dAsulai

satta bhAgavata vEsu lairi

dutta pAla ruci dEliyu sAmyamE

dhurINuDau tyAgarAjanutuDu

Meaning:

What beauty! What grandeur! Who has the capability to describe?

Whoever it may be, all men are ever sunk in lustful thoughts!

Putting on the garb of a Bhagavata they still lust after their mothers in law. This is like the ladle in a vessel knowing the taste of milk. O object of the detached Tyagaraja’s worship (what beauty!)

Note:

Tyagaraja, according to CR Srinivasa Iyengar refers to a neighbouring Bhagavata who was having an incestuous relationship with his own mother in law, in this song. However it may simply be an observation of goings on around him, when men of advanced age married young girls and thereby acquired mothers in law who were of their own age.

Tyagaraja who mainly writes songs on his devotion to god has written such rare songs of daily happening arnd him which he is strongly against……i cried listening to this song coz its such a fantastic melody go to this link n hope u will enjoy the song as much as me…...(http://www.musicindiaonline.com/ and search for enthamuddo n choose the version sung by bombay jayashree…in case u r wondering who is she….she is the one who sand vaseegara n suttum vizhi)

wt wld i do if there were no music…..?music is my best fren ….always there to congratulate n applaud my highs and also embrace n lend a shoulder at the rock bottoms…..thank u god for allowing music to be part of all out lives…..without which the world wld have stop going in rounds …….

friday nite was a very restless nite….for some reason i juz cld not sleep well. i tossed n tossed n finally at abt 6ish i fell asleep but at 7 plus i was awaken by an sms……read it n my sleep juz vanished……my gd fren theeba’s mum had passed away ….a natural death but nevertheless very shocking for everyone coz she is not old nor facing any health problem…..

me n my frens rushed down to her place  n i tell u its the fastest i have eva traveled from yishun to telok blangah…..!i juz wanted to be there with her n make sure she knows she has us with her…..

but seeing her n hearing her tok had made me realize how much to an advantage we take our parents presence….juz 2 days b4 i had a rough experience n this incident juz made me think why do we always hurt the ppl whom we love the most n who loves us the most like our parents…..?

life is really short n so live it to the fullest……i have told myself that i muz make it a point to regularly call home n tok to mum/dad or call mum/dad at werk place n juz chit chat……

well……this weekend is gonna be a gd weekend coz its gonna be my last club outting till oct 28………so im gonna enjoy to the fullest n since im gonna have durga n priya with me fun is guaranteed!!! i juz cant wait for fri n especially sat……im gonna be dead broke though….dam i dunno how im gonna get through the rest of the month man…….argh!…….

Its mid day…..had tuition in the morning but the first thing i woke up i had back ache and my arms hurt i dunno why…i think its time to change my mattress……giving me the morning stiffness which sadly lasts the whole day………

so went for tuition n came back home…..did some werk n juz r n r rite now…..juz need some idle time to myself where i dun think abt anything n juz slack………might go northpoint later for coffee n do some reflection….luv doing tat actually…..

*yawnz*…think im gonna catch a nap …maybe an ice cream too…lol ya i think tat sounds GREAT! hmm…yup..!!!